The Decision

Living is filled with struggles and triumphs, with opportunities and disappointments, with need and fulfillment, with dynamic movement and inertia.  Each day that we are blessed to still be in the land of the living, we are gifted with an opportunity to experience our spiritual selves at work, whether we are cognizant of it or not.  When we’ve tried every road that we thought would get us to that healing or transformative place, and yet we are still left wanting or needing, where do we turn?  Where do we go?  Do we give up and acknowledge our helplessness?  choice 1799749 640Do we discover that our “arms are too short to box with God” as one playwright said or do we begin to really understand that the Universe isn’t looking for a fight, but a window that illuminates healing light energy that moves our souls and spirits to a place to merge in that healing energy? 

 

How do we use the power of choice?  How do we change our trajectory when we feel stuck?

 

You can change anything and you don’t need to change everything because the Universe asks you one question at a time.  Will you walk or run? Will you smile or yell? Will you rage or dance?  Each is an individual choice – you don’t need to know how every moment of every day of the entire month will feel or play out.  All you need to do is decide on this very moment. What will you feel in this single moment in time?  And then choose what the next moment will be like.  Start by in this moment – choosing to smile, even if you want to cry inside.  Then choose what to feel in the moment after that.  Focusing on the moment and not the entire picture gives you the control back.  It will allow you to move yourself in a new direction instead of repeating patterns and behaviors.

If you need to cry in this moment, then give yourself permission to feel that pain.  And then choose to release it.  You decide the value and significance that each experience of feeling will take on for you and how much that influences your life.  You are the writer of your story and at any time, you can change the words, rewriting your future. 

You can choose to open yourself to the healing light energy of the Universe in each moment and rewrite your tomorrow.

What is your next moment going to be?

Be well, be blessed

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RUNNING THROUGH DARKNESS
MEMOIR OF A SPIRITUAL WARRIOR

BY SANTA MOLINA-MARSHALL ‧ RELEASE DATE: MAY 3, 2022

This debut memoir chronicles a woman’s spiritual exploration and growth as she overcame a disturbing childhood and helped others heal.

Brought to America from the Dominican Republic as a youngster, Molina-Marshall should have led a happy life. Her father was a diligent worker, and his large family wanted for nothing. But the author recounts that her dad had a drinking problem and was a serial philanderer. Molina-Marshall’s long-suffering mother left him for a woman. Then it was all downhill for the bright, 12-year-old girl, who was shuttled between foster care and relatives. According to the author, she was sexually abused by the husband of one of her siblings. This resulted in Molina-Marshall becoming alienated and moody. By 15, she simply tried to survive. In her favor were grit and a restless intelligence. She quit school, rented a room, and found a factory job. Time went by, and for a while she was happily married. Yet when her husband left her, her life truly began. She turned to religion for answers but decided that blaming God for her woes was a cop-out. 

In this absorbing and moving memoir, Molina-Marshall’s vivid storytelling is fearless. She frankly discusses the truths she discovered and the indignities she suffered. These admissions are disclosed with a touch of resignation and plenty of bite. However painful, everything she experienced was a lesson, and she bravely realized that she was part of the problem: “The fear of being hurt, rejected, or abused often led to me feeling lonely and misunderstood. No one knew the agonizing pain I felt being trapped in my thoughts and anger. I was becoming my biggest threat.” 

The author skillfully recounts her intricate spiritual journey. To deal with her psychic wounds, she searched for an inspirational system. Her open-mindedness led her to the interfaith concept—cherry-picking from various religions and spiritual movements, yoga, and Indigenous beliefs as a way of finding peace. Along with her female partner, she built a therapy practice, making use of every spiritual element that aided her and others. The road was bumpy, and she found that women of color in same-sex relationships were not welcomed everywhere. To do good works—and finally live on her own terms—she effectively overcame bigotry.

An engrossing, cathartic account of empathy and success through determination and confidence.

Pub Date: May 3, 2022   |    ISBN: 978-0-578-38315-6  |   Page Count: 264    | Publisher: From Trauma to Triumph  |   Review Posted Online: June 13, 2022